when you're falling no one's there your fake friends are everywhere but where you are but where you are so tell me where are you where are you? we all have our moments of doubt and the clock might show that time is running out i hate yo say this but sometimes you're alone if you try harder you can make it on your own so please find yourself before you start making questions these answers may not be what you're looking for everyone has concepts of what's right or wrong but eventually everyone has to grow up

home is where the heart is but anyone can see my heart is broken home is where the heart is but anyone can see my heart is missing life gave me lemons when I wanted apple juice life gave me lemons home is where the heart is but anyone can see I don't have a heart anymore let a lemon drop fall into your skin let the sun shine and embrace the pain that will begin

oh, little kid you don't know where you're going you don't know what you're doing there's more in life than you oh, little boy your heart is too young to know learning how to love is slow and you can't differentiate oh, little man you can't do this without pain you should avoid all the shame that you will cause to yourself oh, little dreamer put yourself in second place you're doing a disgrace that no doctor can heal

it's funny how things start I was forced to move to a city full of pinions I only knew two people who I never really met a girl who I guess that forgave me not knowing myself and a girl who turned out to be a great friend "I can't live here", I thought I tried to run away from reality two months later but what I saw was totally different from what I pictured my vision was full of cocaine, whores and departures a paediatrician who couldn't take care of two kids then I had finally accepted where I should be I finally thought "hey, why not make things different?" then I met you you were so unknown but also everything that I've ever wanted no wonder why we were so connected in less than 24h our first months tasted like heaven I've finally felt understood by someone with similar wounds I've felt love like never before my life turned into a daydream all of sudden I had you, a great job, ambitions in life unfortunately I was always so used to sink in seas of lies I don't know if what haunted me actually happened it's not the case anyways but further that changed both of our perspectives and we started dying from that moment "I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you" depression hit me back like a truck "I don't know what my legacy will be a song, some words I wrote, or a kid I'll never see" I left home thinking it would be easy building a new one it seemed like it but you were just so unhappy and I didn't move a finger from that moment you knew that we wouldn't last much but I couldn't picture anything else in my life I was like some sickness that you caught I started saving money to buy us an apartment I secretly rehearsed so many times a proposal we had names for our three kids that will never exist and I was finally getting along with your parents but my conscience wasn't there anymore I started wondering if anyone would miss me if I died I've searched for shelter having conversations with strangers I've felt so lost, I've missed God like never before I wanted to destroy myself before I had destroyed you but we both know I destroyed you first after 6 months without you my life has finally started making sense you were a hint of how love can be life changing I wasn't well but without you I'd be worse we don't talk anymore, I don't know how you've been I'm not sure how you feel towards me but all I can do at this point is ask for your forgiveness and let you know I'll always think of you I thought I've met love before but you... you were my first love after all. "could have been my anything, now everything is embarrassing" it's funny how things end so others can begin.

leave you are none of theses things I no longer feel alive I'm losing all springs leave I'm confined in my head you got me on my knees and I'm wishing I was dead I feel dizzy I feel terrified I feel so abandoned I feel horrified leave I don't want you anymore please stop coming for me you're not what I'm looking for leave my brain is limping my arms are floating my thoughts are slipping my thoughts are sleeping I feel dizzy I feel terrified I feel so abandoned I feel horrified I feel dizzy I feel undignified I feel so abandoned I feel petrified

leave my head (we're lost in time) leave my heart leaves fall dead (just like our love) life restart see (the wind will clear this clouded sky) leave your bed (dead stars still shine) leave a scar leaves now red (just look above) life restart our fire, our fate (our time) burn us down just leaving soot (our memories) behind like love fake flowers don't (won't) die

every lesson not learnt replays over and over and the lack of understanding weights upon my shoulder every wound turns into a scar every ash was something on fire all i know is that i'm so sick and tired i want to get away from here i will leave my pain behind i wanna die and be born again i will know what it's ahead i want to find a meaning i need some understanding i will leave my mask behind i won't go before i try my suffer will stay inside a flask so I can always look and remember i regret the bad things i've done but I'm not sorry for who i am